*A note about this post, and posts to follow: This blog began as a fun way to share my opinions and ideas on pregnancy and parenting. I see this morphing into a way for me to reflect on my choices as a parent and a human being in general.
Dear Angie,
We are in difficult days as a country, and it is heartbreaking. When a parent becomes sad, overly-reflective, disenchanted, what does that mean for their parenting? Well, obviously, it suffers. Sadness and frustration takes robs you of the energy you need to give to others.
Yesterday, I heard from a friend at our church whose extended family has suffered a terrible tragedy. That information was the last thing I could handle before just breaking down in tears. I am sad, but more than anything I am frustrated. I'm frustrated that people who need help cannot get it. I'm frustrated about the type of gun we can legally buy in this country. I'm frustrated that when I get on facebook, I see more and more divides, and worse, that I feel walls building between myself and former neighbors, classmates, friends.
Something has to give. I know that change will not be swift in coming to the approach toward gun control and the attitude toward mental illness. But I am in control of my facebook usage. And I'm taking a break. I love facebook. I love seeing the pictures. I love that I can communicate easier. But I am tired of the noise. And when I'm honest with myself, I know that I waste a lot of time on the thing.
I'm praying to find solutions. I'm praying for peace. And I'm certain that this choice is leading me in the right direction.
